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If it's been in the basket for years, I'll never use it! I've been away from knitting for a while and want new yarn...trouble is I can't afford any. I have this stuff sitting around but don't know what to do with it. So I'll try to sell (or trade?!) it.

`3 balls Heirloom Cashmino 8 ply
10% Cashmere, 55%Merino, 35% Microfiber
matching Dye lots, dark NAVY blue
I'll let em go for $5. each or trade for similar quantity/quality yarn in black or dark grey?




next up
`1 skein Drops ALPACA (not sure what the Standard weight is..Fingering?)
100% Alpaca
Light grey
$4.00 (or offer a trade)

`1+ most of one Berroco Denim
20% Silk, 80% viscose
color is a light grey with faint blue and black spots
$3.00

`1 ball Rowan 4 Ply Soft
100% Wool
Missing the ball band but never used, color is a Scarlet red will include bits of other ball.
I made these http://www.ravelry.com/patterns/library/queen-of-diamonds-fingerless-gloves and used
less than one ball
I'll say $5.00 on this or trade

`1 Wound Skein of Inca Alpaca
100% Alpaca
Missing the ball band again, I knit a small swatch with some of it so it's a bit light...
$4.00

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Something happened recently, that I have wanted to comment on and have, as usual, been afraid to speak of. It always seems that putting something in writing is a jinx. I don't want to jinx this.
For the first time in two plus years of singleton-dom I really feel that I have found something that may work. I'm almost sure because I don't feel crazy or anxious or paranoid. Of course, I still haven't added him to my phone's contacts, because that is just plain bad luck!
The fact is, even if this goes nowhere it was very significant and I want to write it down.
I met this guy through a dating website, NOT Craig's List. So we exchanged a few emails and decided to meet. We hang out for a while at this bar and it's going pretty good; I'm liking him so I'm nervous, talking a mile a minute etc...It's getting late (for him, early riser!) so we leave. He walks me to my car and gives me a kiss. Now, this is the important part. It was the ( he just sent me a text. so completely distracting) first time in recent memory, or possibly ever, that I have been kissed like that. Just a kiss. Soft, gentle, closed mouth. He didn't try to grope me or stick his tongue down my throat. What's even better is that when I turned to get in my car he held my arm, softly not grabby, and kissed me three more times. Each time with slightly more feeling. Still keeping things discreet, no tongue no roaming hands. It turned me on more than I can stand. Just thinking about it now makes me weak kneed. This was on July 1st.
So, I could think about the kiss a lot more, but what I want to write about is what it means to me. The fact that I can't recall being kissed with that kind of respect really gets to me. It has made me consider what impression I give that guys will assume they can just jump right into deep kissing. Sure there have been times when, usually after meeting someone at a bar, I guess the assumption would be natural on their part. And I will admit that I have never resisted it.
I am so distracted. Sorry, it's really early, didn't get much sleep last night. need to go back to bed. I can't seem to make one thought follow another in a coherent manner. I will post now and hopefully come back when I am more alert and centered.

So. Strangely enough after yesterdays post I get an email today from the Subject. A load of crap ,I have to say. My immediate reaction: anger and disgust. Honestly! Do these freaks really mean it when they say "stay friends"? I've already covered this. We were never friends. He closes by writing " I hope I can see you again soon" a few weeks ago and that phrase would make me so happy, now all I can think is "gee. I didn't realize you had a death wish". Sure I'd love to see you. Crawling on yer hands and knees and begging me for mercy.
Now I suppose I must respond nicely to keep the impression that I'm not hurt or distressed at all. He wrote "you're a girl with a lot of class" , well I sure can act like that! Does of bear mentioning that he has none?

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Hmmm really just trying out this new app. I downloaded it last night because I thought I had something important to say, but I forgot what it was. Probably some new insight to why men Suck! I did have an flash re: the latest travesty today. Because he didn't give me a REAL reason, just the old "not feeling IT", I have to assume that something material occurred to occasion his sudden turn around in feelings. I get the he's not that into you thing. After one or two dates, sure. Ah! Fuck it! No more. I'm done. Done and on to the next one. He is not; and sadly, was not worth my time. Maybe Cosmo is right, I need to go on a man diet til I can figure out What I Want.

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Some things are just making me so tired! I know and understand that not every relationship will work. Fine. But I am so over the lack of manners and good form.
Number One offense: Breaking up over e Mail. This is only acceptable if the entire relationship has taken place over email. If you have been physical with a person, you Must call. If you've got the balls to fuck a person have the balls to call. You are avoiding your responsibility and having bad manners. Yes, fading out with no explanation is worse, but that's no excuse. Grow a pair!
Number Two: Asking for a phone number you have no intention of calling. Really this is just lying. Very bad. If you don't want to to commit to at least one more date/hookup and feel the need to seem nicer than you are, just leave your number. Girls wont call you. We are well trained. We just met you too, assuming this was a hookup, we probably don't expect you to call, but if you ask for our number we will. Also, after one date, don't say you'll call if you don't mean to. Just be honest. God, it's not that hard. The Truth will out...it's better just to get it over with. You are just adding a period of confusion and uncertainty to the likely hurt you will cause.
And yes, you will cause hurt. We will hurt you when we reject you! IT happens. Life is pain. Pain is growth. You can't avoid causing some pain, but try to minimize it.
Three: Please, don't say we can stay friends! You've likely just hurt us profoundly by rejecting us. We don't want to be friends with you. We weren't friends to begin with...how can we stay friends? And if you've committed any of the above offenses we are sure you aren't worthy of any more of our time or affection.

I just want to remember these things. I hope I will not forget and transgress these rules. I don't update, because I am too superstitious about the effect of talk on the outcome of relationships. but I fear my forgetfulness and repeating mistakes.

I don't want my heart to harden and I don't want my world to become smaller and colder. It will hurt every time more and more but I don't want to learn. I wouldn't be able to enjoy the ups without the downs. That is not to say that I want the pain. I think that I am trying to say that I am willing to take the risk."Fools rush in, where wise men fear to go, but wise men never fall in love, so how are they to know?"

It has been so long, journaling is one of those things that gets harder and harder to do the longer you don't do it. I feel that I have had so many excitements and disappointments over the past year and actually wrote about them even when they were really insignificant...if I now write about something that may be truly meaningful won't I reduce it's meaning? I'm also afraid of thinking or writing ( yes I just typed writhing. Freudian typing slip?) about them too much. Then again, if the thing does become truly meaningful won't I regret not having noted its beginning and each moment of its ripening? I was reading an article about the psycho- and physio-logical effects of "love" and one is a serotonin drop which leads to an increase in obssesive compulsive behavior especially in relation to the "love interest". Yeah.

In other news, I am going on a luxury cruise in November. For 16 days at sea, for free too. But it is "work"

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